when i was younger me and my brother got token away from my mom my mom boyfriend used to beat on my mom so bad we used to watch her get beating on everyday then when we started living with my grandmother she had dis husband and he was ah crackhead and he like lil girls but he was running in and out of jail and my grandmother never really fed us like that she only cooked on Tuesday's and Thursday's && she kept us on punishment for no reason we couldn't go see our other side of our family it was all bad she wouldn't let us see our mom we had to sneak and see our mom then at age of 11 we had moved back with our mom she was doing good till she met this dude i was 16 and everything had changed she never gave me and my brother our checks she gave him half of our check we get checks because our dad died when i was 11 aint no telling what happen it was rumors that he killed his self but what i believe dat somebody else killed him i know but he really didnt have time for his kids because he was in jail most of the time and when there was times we had we spent it with him and that was at my older brother's basketball game then the next day my brother had to go an d get his hair cut by him and thats when he told me to stay in school and get my diploma and graduate and shit he didnt tell me that for a reason then the next morning my mom woke us up out our bed and told us that our daddy died it brought me tears in my eyes i cried so much i almost threw up so we didnt go to school for a couple of weeks at his funeral it was worse i couldn't bearly breathe i was crying so fucking much and now that im 17 un still on da shit i still cant believe my dad died he was 33 when he died and his babymom was 22 when she died thay said he killed her but don't know body know but god. and its crazy how i lost my dad dat quick im not gone lie i was a daddy's little girl and im still is but now that im 17 im not gone forget bout him people say i have to let it go but fuck that im never letting my daddy go. but now it's drama here there every where i used to get in so many fight all because people talk about my dad but now im a bigger person i gotta look at it like "oh she just talking shit she dnt kno shit bout me daddy" and she be the bigger person and walk away i still get mad but at the same time i walk away like aint nothing happen. cus they say da shit to piss you off and im quick to get mad i dnt be caring i get so mad if somebody pushes my edge bout my dad i get so mad but now im working on ignoring people now. i make sure i keep it real 24/7 cus lien aint gone get you nowhere anyways i make sure i speck positive at all times i just dont like it when people lie to me in my face like one of my good friends was talking bout me to some body and they endup telling me so i really didnt get mad cus its he say she say shit but i did ask her cus i dnt like when my friends talk shit behind my bac and be all up in my face dats fack and worthless i hate when people lie to me imma good girl but if ya push me down all of the negative stuff will come out trust me... but i love doing what i do i want to be ah model when i turn 18 and dats next month i cant wait and my dream is to be a model i been wanting that forever. and i will too. well everybody can hit me up at www.twitter.com/sayminard614 im gone hit me up
